Merry Christmas~

Ho Ho Ho...

Merry Christmas...

so boring la...

everyone go out celebrate christmas lo...

me le??after going church just back home and online...

so bored and not fun...

what to do...

not friend being invited...

haha....here only i have sec school friend and working friend...

my Uni friend all in KL and hometown...

is ok la...lucky he accompany me chat lo...

finally i got my result le...

i quite happy and satisfied...

out of my expectation...

all pass...wuhuu....

i quite happy...

thx god give me such a big present~

hehe...

伤心

唉。。好伤心。。

真的好伤心。。以前的我回来了，我不想。。

你叫我帮你包那我就帮你。。

我就说不是很会，那他就说不会不就学咯，什么事不会就学。。

可是我就是不是很想学而且有点不爽。。所以就说christmas一年只有一次学了也没有用我也没有兴趣。。过后包到一半你说我手脚慢。。。

那没有关系。。你还说我不应该读hotel management，不会做家务的人学人家读这科。。一定读不成，我就伤心的说我会读给你看的。。我很讨厌被别人看不起而且讨厌得不到你们的支持！！

你这句话伤了我的心。。我的心好痛。。怎么你每次就只会说这种话的。。。

是, 我不会做家务那我在外面也是自己学阿。。那哪里可以证明我不适合读这科还说我读不成。。为什么你就是要说这种话。。不能支持我吗？？难道我在你们心里就那么没有用吗？？？难道对你们来说我就是那么的差吗？？？我好羡慕别人家人都会支持自己孩子而且不会对孩子说这种话。。。我呢？？有得到支持吗？我不知道。。。我知道有时得到的是伤痛。。。好像大哭一场。。。我不是那么坚强的人也许哭能让我发泄吧。。。

本来我好好的心情就这样被你的那句话给破坏了。。。。。。。

本来还不容易心情慢慢好起来哪知道就这样被一句话而破坏了。。。

算了， 以前也是这样的被伤害，就当是个习惯好了。。

现在想起来觉得在KL自己一个人生活更好。。现在有股冲动想回去KL住。。

我会读给你们看！我会成功给你们看。。。。

moody...==

Arghhhh.........now i feel very down....

why???my mood went down.......

why???suddenly feel something on my heart...

feel very difficult...

i want listen song which can make me feel better....

argghhhhhh...........

Yuppy....

Yesterday i am went learn driving again...
wow...have a bit improve...
this time i drove on road...
it not really difficult and just need always change gear...
i hope i can do well in exam...
yesterday he came my house from KL....
OMG...i was like so so happy la...
bcoz miss me and want see me then he came from KL..
it a far journey from KL travel to JB....
but he willing to travel...i was so happy...
then now my family know about i have bf....
but lucky my parent not said anything...and they agree i have bf now...
yesterday i really so happy...
he is the first bf who meet my parent and my family know about it...
omg..another feel shock things come again...
i am really shock la...
just now i on facebook...
chef soon suddenly ask me "you with sem 3 guy"
then i was like shock when i see this...
then i said "huh, who said, omg"
the he said is rumours...
i wondering how he know la...
but is ok la...
one day everyone sure know la...
well...is ok la...maybe it good he know...
haha...christmas coming soon...
huray....i love it..but it just short time for christmas..
during christmas it is so peaceful..
then song for christmas also very nice....
i love it...christmas~ding ding dang....

tired~

haiz...today went learn driving..

omg..i feel i am terrible...

why i nervous???argh....

i scared when i exam i cant pass...

touch wood...i must pass!!!god, please let me drive well and don nervous...

tomorrow learn again...tired la~

i colour hair again...now i satisfy this colour~

bcoz the entire hair colour is balance...compare with last time..

he said i am not Asia people anymore...i more look like white people~haha..

i don mind your past..i also have my past..i don have right to mind your past...thx not lie to me~

it doesnt matter last time you had many ex...the most important is now~

i know you are good guy...hehe...

i like your blog~so nice...

hmm...forgot what i want write le...is ok..next time~

Holiday...

Wow..finally holiday and final exam was over~

huray...at hometown now..

nice la...but left him la...haiz..

before exam we go watch twilight saga, new moon...

it is a romantic movie and i can watch with him...hehe...

here is the ticket..

keep as memory...

hehe...

omg...start from 30 nov i always sleep very late and just slept about 3to 4 hours per day..

damn tired la..hehe..

i don know which day le..my friend and i went pyramid buy something..

then i saw strawberry la..

it so nice...so i decided bought it to "xiao jin" myself during exam...

haiz...i felt i am not do well my exam...

what to do...last minute study mah...

cannot have high expectation...

well...so fast the exam was over...

sem 1 finished le...haiz..

next sem we going to separate from group c le..

i miss group c....

last day of exam...then we took a lot of picture...

bcoz most of us go back hometown and not seen for 1 month...

after that we went to pyramid...

hehe...then i follow him fetch his friend took bus..

then we go one utama shopping...

it quite big and we don know how to shop lo..

about 5 or 6pm we went back le..went to my house..

to put the bear...such a big bear..he gave me one...i like it..hehe..

then we go as he said "little genting" to take our dinner...

the place very very nice...can see part of KL view..

it very nice..he know i like to see then he brought me go....

i feel very happiness have you....

hehe..then we also took some photo for memory..

after that we went to Amp Square to meet vivian they all...

we were celebrate Rachel's birthday...

before we went there and bought a 1kg ice cream cake..

haiz...unlucky he cannot join us..

he need go back..but is ok..i understand de..

hehe...then we sing and sing...

that time i really feel like zombie but i still want to sing...like wanna express lo..

sing until my sore throat going no sound lo...

then about 2.30 hoby and i went back le..

bcoz he need to rest and ready back to madagscar...hehe..

the next day...i woke up early la..

decided go to pc fair with him and his friend...

the convention central so big and the pc fair also held about 6 or 7 halls like that..

we one by one to see...finally we bought some accessories..

he is the first boy i cook for him to eat la..

wow...this also is what i wish for...

then we go mid vally shopping...

haha....we bought same shirt la..

it so nice if wear out lo...hehe...

i am so happy with him....

haiz...we have 1 month cant see...

but is ok la..can chat on msn..hehe..

i am so happiness~

finally i holiday le..can rest...

hehe...tired le...cannot continue le...

NICE....

Yesterday it was our sem 1 three group together last class...

haiz..next sem we going separate into 2 group...

feel bu se de group c members...

Group C is the BEST!!

exam start on Monday..

so fast la....must study hard la...

hehe...yesterday went out with him...

quite happy la....

i like the photo we took...very nice and meaningful..

this is the first time i took la...

hehe...today watch new moon ...

is a romantic movie which i want watch....

after that..must study le...

so so..

wow..finally i finished all practical exam...
huray...hehe...haiz...today not a very good performance for me...
why???bcoz i failed do my cream...mixing too long ...
haha...and i burn my finger and the caramelized sugar split on my uniform and a little bit on my face..it really bad la...
but the mark i satisfy it...hehe..
final exam next week...so fast la..
wow...i need score welll...
recently feel very tired la...i cannot sleep late le..
during exam sure i going no enough sleep la...
why you suddenly feel want drop la..
haiz...don want le...when i knwo you want drop i feel no mood wor...
haiyo...bu se de la..
i hope you don drop la...
hehe...tired la,don feel like want continue write...

unlucky

Haiz...really unlucky la...
just now i didn take my key out from the room...
really don know why i forgot la...
shit..but after that can go in le..
that time i suddenly feel like if i have bf beside me then good le...
unfortunately i don have...when i have??my feeling back again...
but i know we are impossible ...haiz...i don know why sometime quite miss you..
can i stop miss you and give up you....i really want to...
if not i will feel very painful....argh..!!!!!!!
when my Mr. Right come??
can i stop think this kind of thing??
study now...don think about this first...

INNOCENT!!!!!!!!!

Last thursday, i had CKO practical final exam..
i feel i am no good performance in the practical exam...
haiz...maybe i nervous and don have good cooking skill la..
i don know how to describe it..i really feel sad and disappointed...
OMG...today i am really angry and feel want cry la...
what the hell...why sunway send letter to my mom....
the letter is write about notification of absenteism....
ARGH...i attended all the class why said i am not attend..
what the hell...when my mom told me, i was like want to cry and angry...
i hate misunderstand....
i reall don know how to describe my feeling now...feel down...
then i told vivian about this..
she said me back is it i am really not attend...
we go class together and even do assignment together for that subject...
this is for sure i attend mah..how come you want make sure...
argh...i hope can ask teacher as soon as possible la...
walao...shit..

思念

今天真的真的是超超超级的累咯。。。
赶assignment直接没有睡觉。。。
有史以来第一次那样。。。
不知怎么我不会累只是故着赶assignment咯。。
当在做assignment时有想起你，那时真的很想你。。。
可能是你让我没有感觉累吧。。
今天在上课时也没有什么感觉累。。
只是上完课后，感觉整个人像一滩烂泥咯。。
是累到不知怎么说。。
最近生病了，妈妈非常担心所以几乎每天都打电话来。。
感觉又回来了。。
让我真的好想你。。。
我以为我可以忘记你。。。
确实之前我真的忘了你。。。
不过，最近应该是我们见过面所以对你又产生了以前那种感觉。。。
我真的好狠现在的我。。。
为什么总是不能轻易放弃一样执着很久的东西。。。
现在的我，不知怎么会很想做些东西给你。。。
昨天终于跟你说我想你了。。心里总算有点舒服。。
不过那种想念你的感觉真的不好。。
虽然还有东西要写。。可是很累了。。要睡了。。

加油

惨了，星期一要交assignment了，我还没有做完啊。。。
我一定能做完的。。。
啊。。我好恨现在的我。。
为什么有时我不能果断的下决定。。。
为什么还要犹豫。。。
我对你真的好失望。。。
为什么以前到现在你都不会想到我呢。。为什么你总认为什么事都可以的呢。。。
你有没有想过我的处境。。。
你每次都想着你自己怎么不想到我呢。。。
原来到现在我有一样东西没有变的就是我不会为了某件事而放弃我的学业。。。
我真的无法看到自己的学业毁在自己手上所以我不会为了什么事而放弃学业。。
我也不会为了你而放弃我的学业。。。
为什么我会在意你的脾气。。
算了，我应该对你死心吧。。。
现在生病第一次没有家人的陪伴。。。
以往生病家人都在身旁现在在外读书生病了，家人都不在。。。
刚才妈妈打来问我怎样了。。最近生病，几乎她每天都打电话来。。
那天真的感动到落泪。。。刚才更吓到的就是爸爸尽然跟我说话。。
每次打电话来他都没有跟我说话的，可能是妈妈有跟他说我的境况。。。
可是今天就不同了。。他知道我生病所以就跟我说话。。叫我喝多点水。。
我知道你很疼我的只是不知怎么表答出口。。。
虽然你们没有在我身边我都能体会到你们的关心。。
我要坚强点！！加油了。。

tiredness....

Argh...fall in sick again..this time will be more serious..
it affect my voice...
my mom knew already very very worried me..
after hang out her call, i feel very touching and want cry la...
i am useless la let my mom worried about me...
haiz....=.=
i need recover fast la..
final exam around corner...
haiz...today really tired la..
it because i am not feeling well and at the same time i need training at restaurant..
this time really have a lot of challenging la...
why??because i served lecturer who didnt teach me...
well..the whole sequence is quite good...
today serving might be give me a deep memorable ....
well...i should keep in mind ...
next sem i am going to do it all over again..
why i feel like miss you??do i have the feeling back??
no no no...please don...i don want to remember the past...
why you like that???is it you still like me??
argh...i don know..
i don want to know...
i scare....please i could forget it...
and we are friend now...

想法。。。

今天回到家不知道怎么了突然很想写blog。。
也许想把心中所想的写出来吧。。。
感觉上了大学自己有点不一样了。。
又是想法都会不一样的。。。
不是坏想法，当然也有很好的想法和观念。。呵呵。。
有时不知怎么了在叹息自己的不好。。。
我不应该这样， 每个人有每个人的好。。
我不可以拿别人和自己比较。。这样比到几时都比不完。。
我有别人没有的。。我有比人想要有的。。
所以我应该珍惜自己所拥有的。。。
觉得自己变得脆弱了。。。
以前一直想要变得坚强的我很想变得越来越脆弱了。。。
我不想这样。。。我不想在受伤害。。==
不过我跟自己说我不要去管别的东西了。。
努力读书往自己的理想前进。。。
有时觉得自己不会临场紧张了。。
也许朋友的关系，另一方面我必须对自己有信心。。。
加油啊。。我一定行的。。
其实啊，大学的生活很好而且多姿多彩。。。
例如上星期五，我跟朋友们参加了万圣节派对。。。
真好玩，而且我第一次参加呢。。
我好想PA的朋友啊。。好想那段与你们玩闹的日子。。。
跟你们在一起不怕会伤心，不怕被欺负，不怕闷，不怕被受伤害。。。
我想你们啊。。。跟你们在一起的心情真的很开心。。
我也好想中学的朋友尤其是5 science班的。。很想跟你们聚一聚。。
跟你们分享我所经历的事。。
好想跟你聚一聚，一起开玩笑。。那种心情是无比的开心。。
唉，可惜现在我们每个人搭上自己的生活旅程了。。
有了各自的生活。。。
现在自己在外面生活真的学了很多东西，虽然有点苦不过还算开心啦。。
有时好想家里啊，家里有的这里都没有。。。
而且家里比这里舒服几百倍。。
以前在家里自己就好想小姐那样。。什么都不用做。。
现在呢什么都要自己来。。那也好，自己做才可以学到东西就好像自己已经长大了。。
考试要到了，自己要加油啊。。考到好成绩~
加油了！！！！！

busy week~

OMG...assignment have finish la..
final exam coming soon...
haven prepare!!!
haiz....my sem 1 going finish soon...
so fast la...
why sometime think about the time with you...
it become my memory..
argh, why sometime i cant forgot this relationship with you...
it is not i still remember you..
it just remember the relationship...maybe because it is a long relationship
and it become really deep memory for me....
sometime i feel that i am running with the time...
it might be drive me crazy la..
haiyo....always need to complete my assignment..
nowadays got presentation also~
practical class some more...
i am really tired le....
can i have a rest for a while??
haiz...

20/10/09

Yesterday was your birthday...happy birthday to you~
i did not celebrate your birthday with you two time and we broken already 1 years le~
so fast la..well, everything is fine...
now i feel my life going wonderful soon....
although there are a lot of assignment up coming soon....
we have sweet memory with what we enjoy so much...
i don want let other things bother me~
hehe...nothing much to write about~

2 month~

OMG, i came KL study already 2 month already~
so fast man....
haiz..sem 1 going end too~
time past very fast la..
we really didnt realise we already here for 2 month..
just see the date only think about it...
busy for do assignment, research, and even busy schooling make us didnt realise~
nowadays, really tired le...no enough sleep la..
assignment one by one coming...
must management my time properly la..
if not really make me extremely tired~
write until here~

Happy~

thYeah..F&B assignment finished and passed out already...
OMG..because of this assignment, yesterday i slept on 2.30am la...damn tired la..ah~
wow...very surprising la..my result of UHTI and F&B score good mark le...
so happy la...really la~i though i will get low mark....
this show that i can do well...just see i got put in effort or not la...
hehe..ms merry said that i know what going on in the class and my performance quite good~Yeah!!
she want me maintain like this..i will la~
i must do well in my final exam also~
gambateh~
My friend said me "i really stubborn with my own principle, just like a successful person like that, but my heart is empty and want with the person i love"....
maybe she said correct...sometime i really need a person accompany me sms la..
but for me..if there have music then ok le~
well...

=.=

Holiday finished...so fast la...
Assignment getting more and more afterward...
haiz...time pass so fast la...
now came back KL already so miss my family and my room....
i found that my mom still worrying about me and "bu se de" me la...
i also mah...what to do???i chosed to study here and cannot be regret mah..
must go ahead..don think too much...
i must believe i can do well in everything...
today just wrote until here la...i need do my assignment already~

Moody+book= happy~

Today, my mood went down again...
friendship??what is the exact mean for??
anyone can tell me??
vivian and i felt that we are outsider among the friends...
we don know anything about what they talked about, they got secret we don know...
haiz...i know you all went out together that few days then relationship getting closer...
haiz...is ok la..i use of it this things already...
just now we being fool la...
rachel ask us "do we go Jenny's birthday on this friday"...
then we had same expression of that...why??
because we don know about this....
why??why??why??why this kind of things happened again????why??
i remembered i had same experience before...it really make me unhappy...
why la..this kind of thing will happen again...i really don like~
haiz...whatever la..happened already and cannot change le....
i hope i think too much...
ok la..let talk about what make me so happy la..
just now i went popular bought twilight book series la..
Hurray...finally i collect the 4 books la..
although it cost me very expensive but worth of it la...
i really love it so much..bcoz of the story so romantic which every girl wishing for and the robert parttison was so handsome...haha
yess....this make me really happy~yuppy...
Come on magdeline, why let the unhappy thing bother me??
i should let it away....i should learn from that..and be strong~
don let the things bother me...a got a lot of things to fulfil la..
i want success in my study and future~
gambateh, i can do it~haha

感言~

回来KL了。。又要回复以往的上课情形了。。
大姐的结婚典礼才刚结束。。让我写一下当时的schedule，让美好的时刻能记录下来。。。

Part 1
星期五那天7点半酱才到JB啦。。蛮累的。。我妈说我一点都没有瘦而且还有点黑。。
别人是瘦，我反而没有瘦到。。伤心啦。。有点黑，我要尽量不要让自己黑了。。其实妈妈看到我回来真的很开心耶，我都能体会到。。毕竟久久才能见一次嘛。。哈哈。。
过后回到家超累的。。收拾东西冲凉，然后就去睡觉了。。
隔天7点就醒来了，好累啊。。可是没办法，要去教堂。。
大姐她们租mini cooper做结婚的车耶。。而且又是我很喜欢的红色，超美的~ 用mini cooper当结婚车感觉好浪漫哟~
希望以后我可以买mini cooper。。
伯伯牵大姐走进教堂，然后弥撒就开始了。。
在教堂结婚是一件很神圣的事情耶，在天主的祝福下结婚。。
大姐的结婚戒指很美啦。。哈哈。。
弥散完了，有buffet吃，然后就和大姐她们拍照。。
我们一家人跟他们，堂表姐弟跟他们。。。哈哈。。难得的机会~
之后就回家了，换了衣服就和表姐还有弟弟一起去jusco买东西。。
哈哈。。顺便去找朋友。。
逛完之后，就去伯伯家了。。
槟城的姑姑们到了。。哇，家里实在热闹啦。。而且又很多亲戚啦。。
好久没有这样了。。真的难得的机会。。我很喜欢聚在一起的感觉~
晚上又有buffet吃，哈哈。。堂表姐弟们在一起吃东西，一起讲话。。
好喜欢这种感觉啊。。吃完了就站在外面门口讲话。。
很难得唐表姐弟们可以聚在一起讲话咯。。真开心。。哈哈。。

Part 2
今天又要早起了，因为新郎要来娶新娘了。。
我们堂表姐弟们做姐妹。。而且想了几个游戏让新郎和他的兄弟们破解。。哈哈
超搞笑的。。而且蛮好玩的。。
娶到新娘之后，就是进茶了。。
哈哈。。太多亲戚了， 所以进茶时需要一些时间才能结束。。然后就到我们小辈的跟大姐和大姐夫拿红包。。。哈哈。。
过后就去新郎家。。然后我们也一起去。。
男方家的亲戚没有像我们将多咯。。。。
所以进茶的时间比我们的短。。。
全部仪式完后，我们就回家了。。睡了一下，准备了一下就去酒楼了。。
哈哈。。这是我第一次参加蛮不一样的结婚酒席。。感觉像在酒店，有一个大厅酱然后有很长的走廊走进来。。。不过差别是那间不是酒店，是比较大的酒楼吧了。。。

结婚的schedule就是酱，之后的懒惰写了，都是聚在一起的时刻。。结婚是人生唯一一次的美好的时刻。。所以不可以马虎。。
恭喜大姐啊。。你找到了你的幸福~祝福你跟zac哥哥常常久久。。哈哈。。
这几天都好累。。要早起。。做新郎新娘的更加累~
这几天都好开心。。看见大姐结婚，跟亲戚聚在一起。。这几天让我把不开心的都忘记了，慢慢淡忘了不开心的事。。不过还是需要时间。。。
又要上课了，时间过好快啊。。
怎么那么快呢。。唉。。

伤心。。

这忙碌的星期终于要过了，只剩下明天的presentation了。。希望表现会比上次的好咯因为这是最后机会了。。。
今天不知怎么了。。上B&P practical class应该要穿黑裤的。。哪里知道真的忘了，穿到jean裤咯。。幸亏老师没有怎样。。
今天学怎么放桌布咯。。不错啦。。我蛮喜欢的~
唉，我真的很小只啦。。今天拿tray然后上面放五个装有水的酒杯咯。。
很重啦，我的左手真的没有力啦。。结果老师只放三个给我拿。。
我必须连我的手力啦。。。我一定可以的~
明天上完课回JB 了。。超开心~
堂姐要结婚了。好快哦~
找到幸福了嘛。。好羡慕咯~
我的幸福呢？？
还久呢。。现在都没有男朋友哪来的幸福呢。。哈哈
唉。。最近的心情好差啊。。。
我不想要那样的心情，可以吗？？？
我很在意别人说我的，所以每次才会心情差。。
我知道我不是大美女。。。你也不可以那样说我啊。。
当我听到后真的超伤心。。而且还差点在朋友面前哭！
我也有自尊心的啊。。我也是爸妈生的啊。。
你凭什么那样说我~算了。。你都讲了。我能做什么。。
今天在图书馆我开歌听只不过大声一点吧了。。
你需要用那种凶的眼神看我吗？？
算了，我不会怪你。。。都是我的错。。
也许我不美吧。。
好伤心啊。。。我真的想大哭一场。。
为什么我每次都要受到伤害？？
我不要啊。。。我好怕那种痛。。
可以停止吗？？？
希望吧。。。

Today was formal days...wore formal again la..
this time i am wearing heels la...this was my first time wore it for whole day la..
haiyo....really make my feet pain lo...it match with formal attire la..
well...is ok la...as long as it look nice then worth of it...
finally,the BE role play was over...wow..so happy la...
hmm....lecturer said us that we will perform well just maybe a little bit nervous la...
but me, i felt that i am trying overcome nervous already la..
when practising with rebecca, i always cant remember next i am going to say what...
but when role play, i was not so nervous and not even forgot ...just said wrong one word~
haha....quite happy la..
haiz...tomorrow have pop quiz for UHTI...
i haven study yet la...but i just can recall back some only...
last minute study again....why i am always do lke this???
i should change this habit la...
today was very tired la....after finish study UHTI i want sleep already la..
if not i will become "panda bear".....

~~

Yesterday, we went to Sunway Pyramid watched Final Destination 4...
oh my goodness, it was so scary.....lucky we watched it in afternoon if not at night i will have nightmare la..
then after watched and took our dinner, we go shopping la..
finally i bought 2 dress for attend dinner la...
the 2 dress cost me about RM 150 something la...
well...is ok la..can wear for study also lo...
as long as can wear longer then worth it la..
haiz..this coming week will be busy la..why le??
Monday, we have to role play a conversation in front of class..
Tesday, we have pop quiz...
Tursday, we will have F&B practical class and we need know every cultery's name...
Friday, we will have presentation for KM...
everyday schedule is full of work la...
well...i believe that i can do it well in all these..
nowadays, i need music la...why??because of mood...
recently, don know what happen to me la...will be moody la..
haiz...i don want like last time again...i don want get hurt anymore...
can anyone protect me???the answer of course is no one...haha
hmm....no feel like want continue to write la...

Update my blog again....nowadays was so tired la...busy for do homework la..
recently a lot of friendship prob happened between with friend...
but now ok la...it just like a season lo..
let talk about me la.....thursday it was my first time fillet a fish and trusting a chicken la..
wow...actually is quite easy to handle a fish and chicken lo.....but i scare i forget the step la...
but i think i should do a note for it.....
haiz...today damn unlucky la..our group haven print out the script for the presentation lo...
so after UHTI class we went to printed out...then all comp was full already...and we wait...
about 11 , finally we can use comp lo...then we faster printed out...
after finished printed from comp lab we run to LT 6 lo..because chef soon going lock the door..
when we at outside LT6 we realise that the door really lock la...
oh my goodness...this is i first time treated to be like that la...
lucky chef soon allow open the door...
well...is ok la...last minute work is like that lo...
next time i think i want make a plan before do anything so that not repeat same mistake as now and the time working at kids fair lo...
time past very fast la...i am at KL almost 1 month le...so fast lo...almost use of it la..
vivian so sorry la..i write your name here...
you don think too much la....i don like see my friend very sad la....don think too much la..
haiz....next week will be busy again la....is ok la..better than nothing to do...
yeah...next week go back JB....attend my cousin's wedding la...haha...
so miss my family and friend there...haha...
hmm....update next time....

New life...

So long didn update my blog le..got some reason la...haha..
i think got two week cant online due to my broadband did not get it..
haha..now finally can get it le...haha...also don have so much time to update blog lo...
nowadays enjoy college life...hang out with friends...but really tired la..
haiz...just start my course then a lot of homework, assignment, and research la....
mostly my class was whole day from 8.30 started la...
haha...practical class more good la...can learn a lot of things but after practical class really tired..
actually i never regret i am choose this course la...really fun and although i never cook before, from this course i can learn basic cut method and cook...it might be dificult for me but i know practise make perfect and nothing is difficult when you really study...haha
finally i am studying le...and enjoy my campus life...make new friends even international friends, learn self independent, finding my dream, move toward my dream....
now i really like my campus life....really enjoy it although there have a lot of assignment or homework but i am still enjoying it....really a lot of fun....
since make new friends, i really became more brave and talkative....will not afraid asking question in front of many ppl....i really grow up a bit le...i must maintain this...this really help for my future...haha...this course really good for me...next friday will have a presentation for KM but not need wear formal la...i must have confident with myself and don afraid la...in future will have many similar situation as this....yeah...i can do it..gambateh...god bless me~

Orientation Day.....

Oh my goodness...cant imagine that i going U le..haha..quite excited la..
but i gonna miss my family la...first day live alone quite scare and felt lonely la..
then second day ok ok le..
well...the orientation day quite nice la...many people la..
by the way i almost missing in campus la..too confuse for me la..
haha...hmm...a lot of international student in campus la..
in my class also quite a lot of....haha..
well...i am in group C la...my friend in group B lo..
haiz..cannot same group with them la..
well..is ok la...in group C also know some la..
Campus life so fun la...
recently quite tired la...
Mon group C gonna start first class le...our class start very early la...
need wake up early and take shuttle bus la..if not later late enter class lo...
ok la...i will update next post...haha

Disappointed.....

Today went played badminton with friend..
after that had a drink at johor jaya there...
saw one of a primary school friend who worked at that shop..
i though i wanted talked to her..
but missed it la...
well, is ok la...
actually, at night will go have a drink with friend...
but some of them are not free...then cancel le..
when i heard one of them told me that he and another one friend not free then maybe tomorrow go.suddenly i felt disappointed and not mood..
if i know will happen this kind of thing i shouldnt ask they all going la..it really hurt me...
i don like this kind of feeling..i very scare my heart will be hurt again...
when i heard that, i cancel not going le...is ok le..i don want go anywhere, just wait for wednesday coming...
i don know next time i will ask they all go out or not....i really scare same thing happen again...
why sometime i try to do or ask something automatically after that will being hurt??
this will make me become "bei dong" again.....i wish i could "zhu dong"..
but after that will hurt or failure....
haiz..i think next time wait you all ask me go le...i don want ask le..
Gosh...my hand very pain la....maybe so long never do exercise le..
Goodbye my friend, family,my sweet bedroom....i am going leave here and go study le~
Take Care Everybody~

miracle??

So long not update my blog le..haha..my friend always ask me update la.hi chareessa,i update le..don said i am not updating ah~haha...Just now suddenly felt boring...hope that can chat with friend...suddenly you said hello to me..i really frightened la....last time you seem like ignore me...but then now you suddenly find me.I really shock of it.anyway thx for finding me.i hope next time we can be like that.
finally we said about last time that problem le...why you scare lost face?why you worry about i?
we are no more couple...why you care about that i am going out with friend(boy)?i don know la...
actually why you ask me that question?got feeling ??i really don know la...well..i really happy that we can be friend again...when chat with you, i was thinking that am i really forget you?i am very confusing.....anyway...i don bother this le....see first la...
haha....really is miracle..haha...
next wed going KL le...finally wanna starting study le...haiz..half of the year gone..well..
is ok la...at least i can gain some experience and pocket money..can know how is the working feeling...sometime my mother was saying that "why don want study sunway jb?study so far..at home more better staying outside"..sometime i was thinking that whether i make a right decision..then i told myself maybe it was correct..i will grow up one day and that time i must learn to be independent,so why don now learn to be independent...i know you worry me..but i will take care myself..just don worry..everything will fine...
GOD BLESS ME~

说不出的感觉。。。

唉。。好想念他们啊。。在PA做工那半年的日子没了。。那时真的是sweet memory！大家一起玩闹一起面对困难和一些难应付的customer我们都会说出来和大家分享的。。现在没有了。。我想以后也没有机会了。。。我很高兴认识你们这班朋友啦。。记得保持联络咯。。而且有时间要一起出来玩。。哈哈。。幸亏在我，振杨和宝山last day时，有和你们拍照留念。。！下次出去也要拍啦。。哈哈。。其实我心中认识你们了有说不出的喜悦啊。。。不知怎么说总之是很高兴得那种。。。。
噢。。时间过好快啊。。一天一天就那么过了！好像我和你们分开那样快~我的新生活要开始了。。心中有说不出的担心，紧张，害怕！！！谁能了解我现在的情况呢？？谁能理解我的感受？？我知道去外面读书是让我独立。。可是我从小到大没有离开家里那么久毕竟会不习惯。。可是我还是会去面对。。不过我心中好怕啊。。有时的我好寂寞。。好想有人陪我聊天，好想有人与我分担！为什么我内心就是那么脆弱？为什么我就是不能接受内心脆弱而勉强自己去坚强？？那样我会很辛苦很受伤。。。唉。。。

期待。。

终于辞职了，不用做工了！！是很开心啦。。不过很想念他们啦。。真的好想你们哦。。。。很想与你们在一起的时候。。。那时候真的很多欢乐！难以忘怀啊。。。明天会和姐，宝山一起去看戏哦。。哈哈。。蛮期待的。。！！星期六下KL看房间啦。。不知道好不好咯。。唉。。希望可以找到适合的。。。

伤感。。

星期二会是我最后一天在Padini作工了。有点感伤。。再见了PADINI AUTHENTICS (PA)的Staff们如：雨涵，丽婷，素蓉，振杨，家豪，宝山，紫扬。多谢你们带来的欢乐。。很感谢你们在这六个月的照顾。虽然这个月有我，振杨和宝山会走。。不过我还是要对振杨和宝山说再见。。。好不舍得你们啊！！可是我要去读书所以没办法。。不能与你们在工作上的玩和聊天了。。可是还可以在我去读书之前一起出去啦。。我好舍不得你们耶。。。。唉，人总是要分开。。有时间我回去找你们哦~请保持联络！！
辞职之后要去学车了。。然后休息一下，也要准备好心情去面对即将要开始的课程和新生活了。。。好怕哦。。要学独立了。。也要去认识新朋友了。。好怕这种感觉啊。。好想有个人和我一起面对这些事。。。好想。。可是还没有遇到吧。。就算遇到了又能怎么样呢？？
唉。。心情有点不好啊。。因为舍不得你们和即将要我一个人所要去面对的事啊。。。
怎么我还是那么的脆弱呢？？怎么我会那么多感触的呢？？

烦啊。。。

昨天去吉隆坡的sunway u报名。。。宿舍满了。。哎，现在开始烦了。。我好想不要去烦可是就是做不到。。现在只好找看外面有没有房间租了。。或者我打去问还有没有宿舍。。唉，读书真的要花很多钱啊。。。怎么办？？当我去到那里时，我感觉那瞬间我好想我家人和朋友们了。。就好像自己已经长大了要自己出来生活了。。。好害怕啊。。那里环境是不错只不过大多数是都是有钱人读的。。唉，现在希望可以找到房间或者有宿舍咯。。。而且为了省点钱我要申请PTPTN Loan。。希望可以拿到。。。很烦啊。。事情没解决我是不放心的。。。唉。。。

Nice lyrics....

星光泪水(中文版)
你对我来说 是多么的重要
你离开我身边 是多么的伤心
但是你的心里 现在已没有了我
告诉我 你还记得我
我在路上寻找 却找不到你
我在原地哭泣 你的背影模糊
想着你的抱歉 我的心依然很痛
告诉我 你还爱着我
I will be waitting for you
眼泪我早已没有
看着天上的星星
我还是会想到你
You let me know
我已彻底放你走
你现在已经自由
我不会为你掉眼泪
我在路上寻找 却找不到你
我在原地哭泣 你的背影模糊
想着你的抱歉 我的心依然很痛
告诉我 你还爱着我
I will be waitting for you
眼泪我早已没有
看着天上的星星
我还是会想到你
You let me know
我已彻底放你走
你现在已经自由
我不会为你掉眼泪
但是你的心里 现在已没有了我
告诉我 你还记得我
I will be waitting for you
眼泪我早已没有
看着天上的星星
我还是会想到你
You let me know
我是真的放开了
我在告诉我自己
想问你 离开我 是你的决定么


This is the korean drama, Boys Over Flowers song in mandarin lyric....
a nice lyric la....i like it...haha...is over la...i don want think too much le..

回忆。。。

最近老是有些回忆。。。不管是在发白日梦时或听歌时都会有些回忆呢。。怎么了呢？？回忆起与你 在一起的时候。。那时真的很开心！我已经放下你了。。怎么老是有些你的回忆？？那算放下你了吗？？还是只是一些回忆呢？？我真的不知道。。。一想到就想大哭一场。。。以前有你的相伴让我真的很开心。。。！我好想抹去这些回忆。。。这些回忆只会让我感到伤痛。。。我不想要。。。他们说时间会抹去一切。。。我希望有那么一天！为什么回忆总是带有伤感？？我不要这种回忆。。。。这些回忆被压于很久了终于忍不住了。。。我真的不能再压于着了。。我说不出我的伤痛。。我只能默默地承受。。没有关系，让我把这个回忆再埋藏起来吧。。。让我变坚强点。。！我会让这些回忆变成值得我开心的。。。。
8月我会去读书了，蛮期待耶！那将会是我开始新的生活吧！那我就能把这段回忆给忘了。。。那将会是我迈入成功的起跑点。。加油了~
他们都说我很女强人。。会吗？？为什么我一点都不觉得呢？？我也希望我能成为女强人。。。
加油了。。朝我的梦想出发吧~

Last Gathering~

Yesterday, we had a gathering for Hao Qiang last 2 days before going KL.We gather at moonlight cafe,it was a nice place.hmm...that time we had a lot of fun, we laugh non-stop with some funny topic lo...very high and gonna be crazy la..so long don have this kind feeling already.hope can always have it..really make all of us happy and fantastic....some of worker there always look at us because of our noisy la..haha...that time i really enjoy it..we also promise that every year 1 May must gather together and gather at least 2 or 3 time.I will remember this promise and all of you must remember too..must fulfil it..i will appreciate our relationship forever~unconsciously,our relationship getting closer and deeper.it out of my expectation,it really good than before.i very happy i have such a good friends like you all and friends at working place there.before going back we took some photo for memory~

Hurray~

Yeah~我终于pass undang了。。超开心啦！可是明天又要开始做工了。。。会比较忙了！毕竟补回时间不然薪水很少~接下来是准备听一堂课了，就学车了！哈哈。。。好耶！一定要在读书之前考到。。不然就要拖时间了！我也可以松了一口气不用再担心考到undang了吗。。。时间过得很快啊。。不知不觉我做工已有5个月多了，所学的也不少，所面对的事物也不少，跟他们在一起的时光也不少，认识外面的朋友也不少。。总之学到很多东西~经验也不少噢。。也好啦，我可以从那里长大哦！最近，不只怎么了有点沉默和不想说心事，不想讲话，也许是想东西吧。。不管了。。我要开心过每一天就好了。。哈哈！

Shock of it~~

OMG..i get in form 6 oh??haha....really shock la..go SDJ and science stream la...when i open that website and see tahniah i really happy la...but i don think i will study.sometime i scare make wrong decision and feel wanna study form 6..but form 6 too hard...well...i decided study sunway le...haha...hmm...just shock that i can go form 6 lo...btw my teacher said correct science stream easy get in form 6 lo...hmm....don confuse anymore..once made choice le don think too much..it just make me more confuse la..don think le...XD...gambateh~

Forget about it.....

Hmm....i saw your facebook pic comment known that you going study at UTAR. i was thinking that all my friend going different path..it very hardly to keep in touch le..have own activites and life le...the only way keep in touch is through msn or sms le...life is like that~must learn from it oh!maybe is good for me don care about you la...i let it go le..just sometime will think about everything you told me...i should let it go...move on my life la...cheer up..haha...self convince...haha...i will happy always and success what i target for...haha..

WHY??

When i login to Friendster,i saw your profile on the top of one box which is the person you should know.that time i was think that your profile in my friend list le.my curiousity let me know everything clear.that time i was curious that your primary pic so i click in to see your profile.then i know that you delete my profile from your friend list!!!i don know how to decribe my feeling, it not sad!!if i not guess wrong, i know why you delete it...well!up to you what you do...past tense le~everything is over ,no need sad of it~haha.....i got my own life now!!so i must live happily evryday~~~yahooooo........

My life~

Everybody has their own life now~some of my sec school friend are facing their life in campus le but some haven yet lo...just like me la.but now i am facing life in working la.damn nice and enjoying~working really make me feel happy and make a lot of friends there.this will not longer.after that i will continue my studies le.another life gonna start...when my friend told me he got add math homework.it make me wanna do...last time i though that i could continue doing add math in U.but impossible.haiz..!!my sec school held Anugerah Cemerlang last few days ago...last time when i was form 4 time,i think wanna be one of them who are excellent in SPM result and told myself must study hard.that time i really envy they all.but this wish cant fulfil le.i didn done well in SPM.cant be 1 of them.cant proud of it.Arh...why i always like that??i don wanna this...i really regret didnt do well my SPM arh....i think only both of them got which is Tin jia jian and chew woon sin.i also hope want same like them......so proud.....haiz..nvm lo...when step in U i must do well what i study for...be a successful girl....i want fulfil my dream...move toward my dream.....gambateh~

生日快乐~

昨天，放工之后和同事们一起庆祝我们的朋友，振扬的生日！哈哈。。祝他生日快乐！总觉得和你们很多欢乐啦。。你们真的很好噢！虽然昨天你们一直在讲我不过我觉得这样很好。。彼此的感情才会增进啦。。真的很想和你们在一起的时候！可惜，过不久我要去读书了。。很难跟你们出去了。！不过我会回来的哦~昨天晚得很开心啦。。。其实我在里面是最小不过很幸福哦。。有姐姐，哥哥！哈哈。。虽然表面上我们是以名字称呼对方但我都觉得你们好像我的姐姐与哥哥！你们对我很好，可以说很疼我也很照顾我哦！谢谢你们哦。。。哈哈~振扬啊，祝你找到你的幸福啦。。不要把目标放在一个位置罢了哦你还有大好前途哦！哈哈。。愿我们FRIENDSHIP FOREVER~~~~ 希望我们可以每天聚在一起！！

闲。。生活？？

今天没有做工，所以和朋友去CS逛逛。。感觉好自在哦！我们谈了很多关于工作上的事。。感觉精神上真的好累哦。。不知道要怎么说呢！在那工作很复杂啊。。。不管了都不是我的事！之后坐巴士回家。。。这让我想起我从form 2到form 5 从omega 搭巴士回家的感觉~好久没有那种感觉了，而且我也毕业了不能了！以前我是为了补习。。那时候的我真的很累。。可是我那时觉得为了SPM是值得的。。其实到头来是不值得！！为什么呢？一切是我的错。。我没有真正的努力读书！觉得浪费我妈他们的钱~真的很后悔没有真正的努力！！其实我还是无法放下我SPM成绩，我还放不下~始终还是有遗憾！！我就是这样太执着某样事情了搞到我真的很累，伤心，不开心，烦恼！！！今天我不是为了补习搭巴士回家的。。纯粹只是从CS回家咯，长大了要大胆点，要面对很多事情!在巴士还没有走时看到那些人在新加坡做工。。不知道怎么了感觉在那比较好！可惜我不可以在那里读书！没有关系咯。谁叫我没有努力读书！很累啊。。有点想快点去读书啊。。不想在JB这里的感觉啦。。我真的不想“烦恼朋友”找上我！刚才在路上时，突然好像回到中学生涯的时候！那时真的很爽虽然要面对SPM可是就没有烦恼！现在才长一岁罢了，“烦恼朋友”就很多找上我呀。。。我不要这种生活。。真的很累了！真的很想开心过每一天。。没有伴侣也没有关系。。虽然会寂寞可是。。唉。。人生啊怎么那么多烦恼啊？？谁能告诉我啊？？

Make a different~

Nowadays, i rarely typing english lo..haha!well...now i make a different la. typing english again lo!hmm.....sometime i was think that am i really be happy everyday?eh, this question hardly to answer it la. sometime bad mood sometime happy. my emotion will suddenly changed lo..but i hope start from now i want happy everyday la. don want sad anymore la..haha!hmm....i want make my life wonderful la..then i can live happily lo..haha....

开心的一天～

今天和朋友去red box哦。。超开心啦。。很久没有和他们一起去了。。今天不知道怎么了竟然会唱很多歌而且可以听到我的声音的哦。。也许想发泄一下又或者想唱歌咯！哈哈。。超疯狂咯。。超high啦。。好久没有那样了！不知道几时可以和你们这样咯。。我会怀念的！不过还好有和你们一起拍照！有一些我很喜欢哦。。我真的还想和你们一起出去。。。觉得不想和你们分开啦！终于这次能和你们出去了。。超好！哈哈。。开心～

决定了吗？？

这几天很烦。。。烦学校的事情咯！唉。。我不能决定要读哪一间咯！我在考虑６间啊！真的很难选择。。我很怕会过了截止日期咯！希望可以快快决定啦。。。每个人都读了偏偏我还没有啦。。会太迟吗？我觉得不要因为要快点读到ｄｅｇｒｅｅ而想快点读咯！唉。还有的事我还没有考到undang啊。。担心咯。。想快点考到。。可是因为上次不pass时，不敢去考啦！对自己没有信心咯。。这次我会用一个礼拜的时间去读的。。哈哈！下次去考要及格哦！现在她找到属于自己的幸福了，真好，祝福你哦！哈哈。。有时觉得孤单很羡慕其它的情侣，有时会回忆起与他的事情！我真的放下他了吗？我没有想他了，只把他当朋友！偶尔会想起与他在一起发生的事情。。有时觉得与你在一起的那段时候很浪费，虽然有时你对我很好又了解我，可是你就是不知道我真正需要什么，就算你知道你只会一时好罢了。。以前我为了你伤心难过，你知道吗？就算你知道你在乎吗？算了。。都过去了。。我也放下了都不需要再提起了！也许感情的事不适合我吧。。我很怕在受伤害了，我怕我会承受不了。。！嗯。。现在最重要必须快点做出决定啦。。我可以的。。！！

累。。

今天刚从吉隆坡回来。。很累！不过，很开心我能去我爸爸以前读过的学校，Montfort Boy Town！那是一所又天主教会的成员所管制的！以前我时常听我爸爸说他以前在里面的事。。现在终于可以去看是怎样了。。环境很好哟！很干净。。很静是个让人能专心听课的地方哦！哈哈。。里面很有纪律咯。。！其实我很喜欢在晚上走在吉隆坡的路上。。那些建筑物开了灯很美而且很壮观，在路上能感觉到街上很温馨及安静！那种感觉很舒服。。。！哈哈。。总之每去一趟吉隆坡都会有些感触。。！我没有被新加坡入取。。不过我没有觉得伤心！我都预料到了。。!我会去吉隆坡读咯。。哈哈！旅途要开始了。。。加油！

梦想。。梦想。。

我应该决定好了。。哈哈！进不到新加坡。。。我就读酒店管理！我会全力以赴的。。竟然你们那么支持我，那我会做到更好的！哈哈。。。虽然有点可惜我不能读化学的东西。。可是我不回忘了我所学的。。如果忘了我会记回的。。哈哈！过不久我又要踏上我下一站了。。那会是我踏进社会的起跑点吧。。我又要面对新环境，新事物，新朋友。。有点怕！不过我会大胆的去面对这样我才能成长咯。。。哈哈！好舍不得你们哦。。。别忘了记得保持联络。。我不会忘了你们的。。！朝着自己的梦想出发吧。。。加油！哈哈。。。

我的选择到底会是什么呢？？

唉。。很烦啊！又是烦学业了。。为什么别人可以很果断的作出决定呢？怎么我就是不可以呢。。其实我打算读酒店管理了！因为我爸说我读那科的费用很多。。我也是这么想虽然可以申请贷款可是我是觉得我还是换科系读比较好。。化学工程着重于物理及数学！虽然我的数学好但是我的物理没有那么好。。就算我读了我会很辛苦！有时我觉得我不是很了解化学工程是什么。。而且工程师都是比较多男生选择的！我也不知道。。如果真的可以进新加坡读也许我还会考虑要不要读！表姐也说我读酒店管理很适合我。。也许咯！我只知道是管理酒店。。怎么样去面对酒店的大小事务！其实我喜欢那种工作每天都具有挑战性的就好像是做高级数学那样，每一题都有它的难度让人去思考。。这样可以让我的头脑转动的思考及从中学习到很多东西。。。不知道有那些工作是这样呢。。如果有就好了那我也许会去读那一科！

开心。。我跟我姐终于和好了！！

真好我跟你之间的事终于解决了！你不要饶是说自己没用好吗？这样我会很过意不去！而且也不是你的错咯！放心吧。。以后有什么心事我会跟你说不会再瞒着你了！你就别说自己没用了。。我明白你对我好。。我会珍惜彼此间的感情的！我已经把你当姐姐看待了。。所以很在意你所说的事！谢谢你没有生我的气~我之前还怕你在生我的气！希望我跟你的感情会比现在好。。哈哈！

对不起。。

唉。。真的很对不起你！现在我真的不知道要怎样。。我知道是我弄你生气！一切都是我的错。。我很在意你。。为什么呢？？因为我把你当姐姐那样看待！我真的不想失去你这个朋友！你别生气了好吗？？或许你生气是对的可是我也不好受啊！我真的不知道要怎样做！别生气了好吗？？如果你不原谅我也没有关系。。都是我自找的！唉。。。

对不起。。

昨天真的很对不起各位。。。就因为我的表面显露出我不开心干扰到那时的气氛！其实我也不知道为什么我的心情突然间变得很低落。对不起我不知道勒就觉得没有什么话题和你们聊咯，可能分开一下子后变得我不知道要跟你们说些什么，而且也不能融入你们的话题。我也不知道我为什么会这样！也许受过伤害不想再重蹈覆辙让我的心受伤害多一次！你们看到我和宝山一直在讲话其实我跟他聊一些以前学校的事！早知道这样我就不去了弄到你们好像不开心！真的很对不起。。。

谢谢。。。

朋友们，谢谢你们的关心，你们别担心我~我会没事的，虽然我还介意我的成绩可是我的心情也慢慢好转了！为什么你们会讲我变得很静？？真的吗？也许吧。。我也不知道为什么！就感觉有时没有话题，也在烦些东西吧！也许我在Jusco楼上11天，现在回来了会有点陌生吧。。而且我跟你们也分开11 天所以不知道要聊些什么咯。。！唉。。我就是这样。。。不是很会找别人聊天甘愿自己一个人都不要打扰你们！就算有事就自己承受。。。！我想你们真的没有看过我很静的时候吧!千万别吓到。。。也许你们还不了解我的性格吧！讲真的我吓到你们说我变得静。。我反而觉得还好！过不久我就要走了，也许以后会很难跟你们见面，而且之前我还舍不得你们不过过后想了想都是要走的为何不走的潇洒点呢！天下无不散之筵席。。其实我觉得我跟你们的感情还好罢了不是很很要好那种。。放心我会跟你们保持联络!不过真的没有后悔进来PA做咯。。！！最近很烦。。烦要报读哪间college咯。。烦到底要不要读化学工程。。烦到底可不可以进新加坡读书。。烦到底要不要换别的科系来读。。怎么办啦？？我真的很乱及烦。。。我必须做出决定！我就是这样每次怕难读就不敢去读！再这样我一定不能决定的！不行我必须撞下胆。。读就读，不过我会想清楚先。。。！！！

加油。。。

今天一看报纸就报全A生。。。厉害！羡慕极了。。。如果换着是我一定庆祝的！可惜我成绩那样怎么敢庆祝。。今天心情好多了也许是哭了出来舒服多了。。心情正慢慢好转着。。不过还是有点伤心及失望。。今天去新加坡交申请表格时发现蛮多学生也是马来西亚的去耶！开始怕不能进了。。我才3A 吧了怎么跟人家比啊！也许他们的成绩都比我好！唉。。现在只好靠运气及求天主保佑了。。。感谢那些朋友给与我的安慰！我知道你们关心我可是我一时间难于接受我的成绩所以让你们担心了。。我知道我一定会坦然面对而且那时我需要时间静一下。。所以让你们担心了。。不过我会从中学会一些道理。。从那里再站起来。。从那里长大。。用不放弃！我不会因为这样而放弃我的理想。。。加油！！！

伤心的一天。。。。

成绩出了一句话，不是很理想！失望，伤心，后悔。。。拿成绩那时觉得心情还好的那知道去做工时心情开始变得有点差了。。也许要面对很多人问的关系吧！ 真的很失望。。。又不能在重要考试拿辉煌的成绩。。看到其他朋友拿辉煌的成绩真的很羡慕。如果我也有那么好的成绩就好了。不过那是不可能。。唉。。自己始终拿不到那么好的成绩！心里好伤心好难过。。不知道要怎样形容。。我真的不想让我父母亲失望。。。我希望我拿到好成绩让他们光荣及开心！真的好难过。。其实我不可以怪任何人只怪我平时没有真正的努力。。。后悔都来不及了。。我知道还不迟。。。我会在大学时努力的不会像现在这样了！真的好失望，伤心。。。。我真的会比别人差吗？？我真的那么没用吗？？我真的不知道。。。唉。。现在失望，伤心也都没有用了。。我会努力的完成我的梦想。。我不会放弃。。。。。。。。不放弃。。。。。。！！！！

怕。。

惨了。。再多九个小时要去拿成绩了！！真的很怕呀。。。怕失望的感觉再次出现！真的不想让我的父母亲失望了。。真希望拿到的成绩是优越的。。。拿了成绩过不久我跟朋友们都要分开了。。真的有点舍不得。。毕竟同班也有3年多了！虽然我做工那里也有认识一班很好的朋友可是我也一样要离开你们。。天下无不散之筵席。。。！有机会一定会找你们出来喝茶。。一定要保持联络。。嗯。。你们说拿了成绩要去jusco玩很可惜我不能啦。。有做工！真的很想跟你们去嘞，很久没有一起出去了。。。哎。。。讨厌的咯。。！不用紧咯。。也许我可以陪你们一下吧。。或者下一次有机会一定要一起出去玩哟。。。觉得很想跟你们出去咯。。也许有的刚从NS回来很久没有见面了。。。哈哈。。

友谊难寻。。。

今天没有作工就和作工的朋友们去redbox唱歌。。。其实我不是很敢唱的不过很少有机会这样了！所以就趁这次机会一起去！哈哈。。。偶尔唱下歌蛮不错的！我很喜欢当时的情景咯！感觉很像活在音乐的世界里。。。那种感觉多爽咯！哈哈。。。其实我很珍惜每一天跟你们相处在一起的时光。。过不久我就会走了有点不舍得，也许跟你们有感情了。。那是我第一次有这么好的一班朋友。。你们每个都对我很好尤其是那时我的生日！我会永远记得你们为我庆祝生日的那一天。。真的有点不舍得你们~~唉。。始终都要离开你们！我要完成我的理想，我要成功，我要完成我梦寐以求很久的事，我希望我能完成到时会找你们的。。。我不会忘记你们的而且我会时常跟你们联络。。。我觉得有点怕离开家去吉隆坡读书。。我怕我不能遇到像你们那么好的一班朋友。。。开始舍不得你们了。。怎么办？？

温馨的感觉。。。

现在外面正下着大雨，我却躲在我那温软的房间用着电脑。。。顿时觉得心情很爽！也许是那大雨的情景让我的心情好转。。下大雨的情景很温馨！有时下大雨能让人对某样事物有感触。。。有时觉得很喜欢那种心情。。感觉真的很放！当我跟你讲我所烦的事时之后你竟然画2个小人物给我看。。蛮美的。。那画让我有点感动和让我有种不怕读那科系的感觉。。而且很可爱不过也许只是朋友的安慰罢了。。。我不需要想太多那只会让我伤心。。！我记得他也有给我一张画有机器人的图。。可是不知为什么他说很舍不得然后他就拿回去了。。。不过我已经放下他了不需要顾虑太多。。

烦恼。。

最近不知道怎么了心情会突然间变得纳闷咯。。也许在烦一些东西吧！哎。。还以为考完SPM 可以放轻松那知道还要烦恼一些东西。。。希望这些烦恼可以快点决绝咯！现在我觉得喜欢一个人很难！有时因为这觉得很累了。。。真的很累了！很想放弃了可是。。。不要放太多感情~受伤害的是自己。。。

惨了。。。。真怕！！！！

SPM 成绩要出了。。。真怕！怕考不好。。。咯！真希望考好咯。。。开始有点担心了。。！怎样办？？那成绩就好象决定我的人生了。。。一定要很好！而我希望能申请到新加坡啦！担心。。担心。。担心。。！真快咯。。成绩又要出了。。有点舍不得作工那里的朋友咯!唉。。他们对我都很好！而且在那个brand里面我竟然是最小耶。。以前在班上我是第二大耶。。哪知道现在我是最小。。不过也没有关系吗。。哈哈。。拿了成绩过不久又要踏入不同的生活方式了。。。有点怕！又要认识新朋友啦。。又要熟悉不同地方咯。。。哎！没有关系。。18岁了嘛一定要去适应咯。。坚强点！

放下了。。。

自从那次他讲那些话后，我决定要彻底放下。。。嗯，我觉得我已经放下了。。虽然今天有想到一些与他开心的事。。。可是我只是想起罢了没有想到他。。。这么久的事终于可以放下了。。。。感觉轻松多了！今天作工突然间觉得有时我没有朋友的感觉。。。。我就跟一位朋友讲，他和我都有同感。。。我真的不知道为什么我会这么觉得！想到这点有时会羡慕别人有要好的朋友而且身边总是有朋友就对的。。。我觉得我有时没有朋友。。。也许人缘不好吧。。！唉。。真讨厌那种感觉。。。。。。是我的性格关系还是什么呢？？我真的不知道。。。为什么我的心总是要伤心呢？我真的不想我的心再受伤害了。。。真的好累了。。。是我想太多还是什么呢？？？算了。。。我的星座是水瓶座，是独行侠吧。。！也许那是真的。。。我工作的一位朋友说为什么我这样小就那么静？？哈哈。。。我跟她说那些我以前所面对的困难咯。。 不过也许我像我爸爸比较静一点咯。。。可是我玩起来是有点疯的。。。！朋友？？？真的那么困难交吗？？我真的不想为了这个而烦。。。我要每一天都能活得开心。。。。可以吗？？不去想那些事，可以吗？？我真的很累了。。。。请烦恼远离我吧。。。。。。。。。。。。

Haiz...

Haiz..nowaday suddenly i will feel no mood la..why like this?because of what like that?friendship?love?education?family?problem of the surrounding?sleepy?i really cant tell myself what make me like that....cant say it..!!!haiz..i really don know why?is it i don want to know or i afraid to face it??i really don know la..sometime feel "fan" la and will day dreaming la..at working time cannot day dreaming la that why when i day dreaming i sure tell myself wake up and concentrate working lo.."fan"..."fan"..."fan" la...when can don want be so "fan" le...i really don want it..haiz...recently i also not enough sleep la..is it because this make me feel no mood?or "fan" about other things?haha...i don know la...i don bother la..i want learn to let the things go so that i could live happly...hmm...valentine day coming soon la...i saw most of the shop promote valentine's present for couple la..all things very nice!hmm.....how is the feel of valentine day?am i really enjoy it?well..i think not!hmm...maybe i just know the happiness of the couple~hmm....

Thank you you all....

Yesterday was my birthday lo...i can say that yesterday was a wonderful and unforgettable day for me la...yesterday my friends ( PA) and i went to eat steamboat after working lo...first i thought we celebrated CNY la...but then they gave me a surprise la...they even sang birthday song and brought cake for me la...i can say that this was my first time my friend celebrated with me la...even better than my school friend accept somebody la...well...i am very happy what they done for me....i will not forgot you all!!i will not forget this year de birthday la...hmm...that why i saw them always grouping lo..grouping at counter was a wrong way la!well..thx la!hmm....the day before that they sending a nice message to me on the time which was my birthday la...well...it was a nice message which was they all created themselve la..they all one by one send to me lo...very touching la!haha...hmm...they all also very bad la...before went back from steamboat there they play "zhong ji mi ma" la...they pakat already la...first they said who lose must let one friend kiss wor..is a boy la...then i thought was true la...then when play first round got a bit confuse la...then one of them said play again la...then second round they pakat make me lose la...then i am realy lose la...then of course i don want boy kiss my hand la..then sure said don want la..after that they said can choose girl so i choose la...she ask me close eye then i don want and she holded my hand....i thought she want kiss but she never kiss just gave me something...oh..they gave me present la...oh...they use this way make me accept the present la...well...thx their present la...i will appreciate it..happy~~~~~

CNY coming le...

CNY coming soon...hurray..!i like this year de CNY le...because SPM finally over and i can enjoy this time de CNY le!haha....without you i still can so nice!although still cannot let it away but i will try to overcome from it!well....i will keep evrything about you in my heart and dig in it!sometime i really don know how to decribe my feeling....A new year come, a new life begin, a new environment be around, i will start a new life all over again...i will make my life wondeful!

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Hmm...i very happy work at Padini lo!maybe learn a lot of things!although quite stress for sometime but everything must learn then only can get it la!haha...i know a lot of friends there!haha..!they all very good le!haha..btw i also think about my studies la!haiz..i am worrying!i ask suggestion from my cousin!she recomment me study A level!hmm...is good but i still not sure la!i must think properly first!i don want waste my time lo!i want to be success !hmm...haiz...lazy to write some more la!cause work at Padini quite tired la!