Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Arghh.....

So long didn post blog le...
don know where start to write about...
let start to talk about the first week of sem 3...
argh...first week basically briefying about the sem 3 lesson and assignment...
OMG....while lecturer talk about SOW i can feel the stress is coming to find me..
a lot of things to do for this sem..
do not procrastinating for this sem...
because almost assignment due date quite nearer..
if procrastination happened then all assignment do the same time then i will really die le..
always in mind "Do it ON TIME" !!!!
this sem i have French sub...
wow..first class was awesome..
Je m'appelle magdeline ...
quite enjoying and that week quite tiring after monday class..
then last fri was Kher li's birthday...
we decided to give her surprise..
that time we ask her to eat dinner at Wong kok..
that time was so hungry since morning not eat ...
then when she go to seat then we sang birthday song to her..
huhuhu...after blow the candle on the birthday cake, we very quickly ordered food la because all of us so hungry...
one week only can see dear 1 or 2 times...
we went to The Mines ..
that have lake then we took cruise tour...
wow..it is fun and i had a great time with dear..
it make me relax for getting stress soon...
i will miss and love him...
haiz...i don know what wrong with me ??
why i lack of confidence as my lecturer also can see it on my face...this is my lecturer told me when we 1 by 1 see her to know our mark...haiz..she gave the comment which i felt so sad and disappointed with myself..
argh...i hate myself which lack of confidence..
in operation i always lack of confidence and easy get nervous...
when i can overcome from it???i need improvement argh.....!!!
haiz...i really must do well my F&B service la..
today i served lecturer again..argh...
a kind of scared, worry, nervous!!
some more got wine service..
i don really can open the wine..
it really difficult to open..
out of sudden "pop" sound is being heard...==
it suppose no "pop" sound..
lucky this time wine service mark does not included because of first time..
i need practice a lot la..
today i felt so sad and sorry to that two lecturer...
so sad until i cant really decribes..
it hit my confidence...
the two lecturer is going paid..
then i had to split check for them...
one is paid by cash the others are paid by voucher..
OMG...i forgot to give 20% disc for her so she argue about it and a pologise and reprint again to her...
after the bill print out already i print another lecturer voucher bill..
then that lecturer who paid by cash gave me RM15 so i need paid her 20 sen..
that time i don have change...so i asked from manager..
maybe the two lecturer think i work too slow and not patient or what la...
if i not mistaken i heard one of lecturer bang the cashier and said nvm and went out le..
OMG...that time i was so so so shock and sad...
this is the first time being treated like that...
it hit my confidence...haiz..
serve lecturer always is challenging...
i hope not second time happened again....
gambateh next time ~
yeah...tomorrow got badminton session by badminton club...
hurray..finally this day come...
i can play sport and release stress too...

Friday, March 19, 2010

Whats wrong with me?

Yesterday i not really have mood..
i felt i don have confidence in relationship...
why la??whats wrong with me??
is it because failure of last relationship?
i think so gua...
haiz...i should not think like that...
i so miss you dear...
i also don know how to describe my feeling nowadays...
i not really satisfy my result...
argh...next sem i should do well la...
i don know what wrong with me in this year la...
haiz...i should be strong to face everything...
hope can do well...^^
good luck and gambateh in Sem 3..

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

bored...miss...!!

Haiz...boring lo..
everyday just wake up, eat, watch tv, sleep...
keep on repeat the same routine..
the only different is i do take care my cousin too...
because my grandmother and cousin stay at my house last wednesday..
my cousin was so naughty but very cute..
that why i also "sayang" him la...haha..
sometime feel like want to start class faster so that no need bored...
i felt time pass so slow during holiday lo...
these few days so miss dear...
he went internship for second day le...
i feel so miss him....
i hope when i start class get more busy then time pass fast so that i wont feel he go for so long lo..
as the time pass i feel so miss him so much...
maybe i haven get use of it lo...
i had never miss a person so much before...
this is the first time...
i lazy to write le...continue next time ..

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Memory...

Finally exam finish....huray...
so late 0nly blog la..because last few days was going out with friends...
now i want to talk about first day of exam until now...huhu...
first day was having CKO la...
quite ok lo but still scare la...
the day b4 this i was studied until bored la..
then my mind suddenly think of dear gonna go internship le..
so miss him....so i suddenly come out this

对你的思念成了我的困扰...
对你将要去做工时感到不舍...
与你欢乐时光即将减少...
我也开始等待你回来的时候...
对你的爱任何事无法比...
一句话好爱好想你...

一段情, 两颗心, 三个字我爱你

AOC by Magdeline..

hahaha....lol..i really will miss you dear...
second day was wine, spirit & beverages...
OMG...it hard la..i scare i fail it la..
so sad so don want talk about it...
third day was F&B...
one word Awesome...
it not difficult but i had no enough time to answer more detail for certain question..
well..hope the result is good...
after F&B exam then we go sang k...
wuhuuu.....so nice..i can relax le..
4 of us which is vivian, rachel, liyuan and I...
then at night eric fetch us along go to eat...
we went to kepong ate steamboat..
we so enjoying...
then about 11.45 something i reached home...
then bathed and online until 1.00 am i go to sleep..
because the next day is Muar trip...
OMG..that night i couldn fall in sleep la..
it so hot and quite excited gua...
eventually 4.30 i suppose wake up..
then i 1.00am slept it only 3 hour sleeping time only..
unforturnately i not sleep and i just close my eye only...
about 4.00 am i woke up and bath le..
it really hot la...
acutally i quite enjoying Muar trip..
i grow up in Johor until now i didnt even go to Muar before la..so i was quite excited that i go Muar...haha..lol..
wuhuu...the some activity quite boring ...
well..doesnt matter la..sweet time with dear also..haha
btw during the whole trip i was so tired because i didnt sleep that night lo..
now holiday le...so good..
but only 2 weeks la...
i will be back on next week...
the first week i stay in KL..
because chef soon ask me help during open day...
but until now still no news...swt..
never mind la..actually the main point i stay because dear going for internship on 15 march le..
so i want spend time with him....
i remember one day i first time cry while hugging you...
because i was thinking the day you went to internship and the song was playing on my laptop was nice song...
the first time i hugg a boy and cry...and dear are the first...
i hope in the next 5 month i will be strong and wait for the time we enjoying again...
yesterday i was telling you a truth which i not brave to tell you before this...
again dear let his shoulder to me and hugg me and cry....
sorry i not brave tell you before this...i really scare i lost you before this..
now i tell you because i want be honest to you and share with you dear...
i cant forgive myself and i am not that good girl and perfect girl as you said...
i had failure...this is the only things i was so so depress in sometimes...
it already be history and cant changed...
as time past it become part of my memory...
i should forget it..can i??
i very thank you dear don mind it..but i mind it...
haiz....so so so sorry dear...
I love you dear forever and ever..
my heart only for you...
blogging until here la...
nothing much to wrote le...