Tired...

Today went to pasir gudang listened undang la!haiyo...very tired la!haiyo...that penceramah hor always asked question la!i feel very what la!a bit scared but also must brave la..if not when go U there will be a lot of presentation lo!you will standing in front talk to a lot of student la!haha...that time i cannot panic anymore le!got mark le!so in this holiday i must train myself be brave la!i know i can do it!well...i hope i can pass 50/50 then i can get my L pass to learn driving car le!hmm...aiyo..i don know where to study le!my mom worry i go outside study le..she said if can just study here!problem is here got not good U lo!not necessary can study in singapore lo,study there need 3 years la!i felt a bit waste time!nvm..don think this first!i also don know my result good or not!i hope can excellent la!no confident la!now just enjoy first la!haha.....

Yeah...

Yeah...today SPM finish le!fantastic la!haha...well i can do many things le!but i going separate with friends le..haha..just now before sat for EST pp1 i played with my friend le..but the game is last time primary school time play lo!anyway it was very nice lo because it was the last time i played like that with them in that school le!i so miss it la!haha..but just now very funny la!we all sweating went in the hall lo!but everything is fine la!just now before examiner took the paper my friend all very happy and laugh la!after went out then we all said goodbye to all my friends la...although excited but still got a bit sad la!well...we sure will separate la..we cannot together as usual la!i must accept this concept la!but i still can keep in touch with you all la!only one problem is after we taking result don know when our 5 science student can meet together again la!haha...finally finish form 5 le!wanna step in U le and finish my secondary school year la!well..is happy but separate with friend!last time i though friend for me not that important since i meet one tuition friend,yin san i found out that friends very nice to be my side lo!well..i must thank you you la!yin san,you treat friend very good la!during SPM ,you called me 2 or 3 time to bless good luck to me!i was very happy got a friend like you!you were the one very good to me la!anyway thank you le!haha...i will enjoy my life now...

今天好伤心哦。。。

Haiz。。今天好伤心！爸，为什么你要这样讲我！你知道你这样说会伤了我的自尊心吗！从以前我的自尊心已经被伤了很多次！我真的不想被伤过太多次！我只是这样问你吧了为什么你要讲“你的头脑不可以转一下啊你应该把你学到的转一下就知道了啊!所以就是读死书！"我真的是不知道吗难道你不可以好好的跟我讲！就是要讲一些这样的话！对，也许我的英文不好！当我听到这话我真的好伤心！我再也忍不住的哭了出来！我真的好伤心！我最讨厌被人家看不起，我超超超讨厌这种感觉！我不要被人家看不起！真的！啊。。。。。被人家看不起的感觉真的不好受！我不要被你看不起！从小我承认我成绩不比人卓越，所以在UPSR和PMR都不是很好！让你和妈都失望了！可是这都不是我要的！但在SPM我一定会证明给你们看我不是读死书！我不会让你们看不起我的！我一定要摆脱被人看不起的！有时我真的好羡慕别人的家人会给与他们的支持！但是我觉得我都没有！有时就因为这样使得我真的很想快点SUCCESS IN MY LIFE！我一定要考到好成绩给你们看！啊。。。。。。。。。。。。

Haiz...

don know why la my feeling feel a bit sad lo!is it because of you?or because of two more week then i will leave my secondary school le!although that school not so good but got a lot of memory there!leaving secondary school i will be step to social for my next journey...i feel very scare i growing up so fast!haiz...i going to start my journey soon le...for me that is a new and strange life..may the time slow a bit?i wish can enjoy with my friend before we separate lo..so sad la!i know there will have a lot of new thing i need to face!although i with my friend together not so long time but sure got feeling with it!i really feel sad wanna separate with them!when with them can hear a loud laugh sound , a very very funny joke it can make you laugh non-stop!these all already be part of my life le...without this i don know whether i can 适应or not la!"Fall For You" this song very nice...when i listened i will miss all the time with my friends and you!sometime i don know why still cannot forget you even though i said wanted to forgot you!why like this?is it together so long?i really don know la....but this will not affect my mood for sitting the SPM lo...last time i always think that you are important to me but since the day you said that i think is rather difficult for us together le and it make me more stronger and know what i want now!but the only thing i cannot forogt was the time with you!haha....you really no change at all la!sometime online you cannot say hello to me or anything ?you really want a girl to chat with you first is it?i think you treat your friends different lo!you said before friends important than gf la!haha....never mind la!already past le...i should not care it so much!fine...fine...fine...i not believe that without you i cannot live as usual......

有点担心。。。

很讨厌了。。今天考数学试卷1的时候我早出考场hor，不能拿问题纸出去咯！很生气啦！过后我去拿的时候考官讲可能掺在别的橱了，然后他暂时给我别人的，等他找到了在给我！我不喜欢拿别人的啦！有点伤心咯，试卷2很像有一些做错了咯！我现在没有什么信心可以拿A咯！以前还有信心可以咯！好担心啦！希望真的可以拿A啦！啊。。。。。真的很怕不可以拿A啦！！！！！

Scared...

haiz..how la?last minute study la!very scare cannot do well la!my friends said i can if i work hard!i know...i don know why i got no confident lo!anyway i sure study hard la!i must do well in SPM achieve my goal la..i really wish to be a successfull person in this world la!may god bless me lo!haha...all my friends gambateh le!this is our last station of doing our exercise all in the secondary school!as my tuition chemistry teacher told us , "this is you all last station for doing the chemistry question"!this sentence already 打动我的内心让我彻底的知道我真正读书是为了什么！以前的我以为读书让一个人不被人瞧不起及有知识！对，不过我真正要的不只是这样！我要的是我能成功！成为在社会能让人尊重的工作人士！那将会让我有成就感！我真的可以成功吗？以前的我终是羡慕别人的成绩忠是那么好，就是我有那种心态使到我对我自己没有信心！自从他不在了，我觉得我必须变得更坚强我要甩掉以前我的那种格性！其实SPM对我来说真的很重要！我一定要取得卓越的成绩！我还记得我曾经对我朋友说我想在学校拿到SPM奖励金！那就是在老师及学生面前！不知道我可以办到吗？我朋友说一定要对自己有信心！哈哈。。。我一定会的！哈哈。。。加油magdeline!哈哈。。。

Confirmation past le...

beside this pic was took in the church la...with my mom and father lo!haha....confirmation past le!sweet memory la!my friends said i beautiful la..is it?i don know la,maybe is truth!haha...so happy with all church friends la..before that i was still anxiety what going to do when the confirmation start!anyway it was successful finish it...haha!i will keep today as my sweet memory la!haha..

真的吗？

真的决定好了吗？也许是吧。。我会尊重你的选择的！我承认你曾经在我生命里出现过！以前的我，在没有你的时候不能生存！不过现在不同了，我可以活在没有你的时候，这也许是我已经习惯了吧！以前的我太在意感情了，导致我需要时间去恢复我所受的伤！不过我已经痊愈了！有时我偶尔会想起与你在一起的时光，不过那已经是过去了！也许我们做朋友好了！哈哈。。。我会坚强的！你说你不想伤害我？那是真的吗?还有你说你需要自由？难道当时你没有自由吗?哈哈。。让它成我的回忆吧！有时会觉得舍不得，真的！毕竟那已经是很久了！或许感情太深了吧！算了，那是不可能了！成回忆吧。。。。

SPM 要到了。。。

考试要到了，好怕阿！我真的很希望可以考到卓越的成绩啊！我一定要努力咯！各位朋友们，你们一定也要努力噢！很快地我的中学生涯就快结束了！好怀念与你们的日子啊！我不会忘记的！昨天，我才与我的生物补习朋友分离呢。。好舍不得啊！不知什么时候才可以与你们相聚也许没有机会了吧！我也要感激他送给我的书签，我会好好的珍惜的！在这一年的补习时间多谢你的陪伴使我知道朋友的重要！我不会忘记与你的相聚和你的欢笑声！多谢你主动的认识我，不然我不知我会有一位这么好的朋友！真的好怀念你与你朋友的欢笑声，真的好感谢你！我希望能与你在想见或许能同一所大学！加油啊！让我与你们和我所有的朋友一起加油啊！冲向成功的目标！加油吧朋友们！

This is my first blog

This is my first blog!through this blog,i hope i could express my feeling whenever sad or happy!