烦恼。。

最近不知道怎么了心情会突然间变得纳闷咯。。也许在烦一些东西吧！哎。。还以为考完SPM 可以放轻松那知道还要烦恼一些东西。。。希望这些烦恼可以快点决绝咯！现在我觉得喜欢一个人很难！有时因为这觉得很累了。。。真的很累了！很想放弃了可是。。。不要放太多感情~受伤害的是自己。。。

惨了。。。。真怕！！！！

SPM 成绩要出了。。。真怕！怕考不好。。。咯！真希望考好咯。。。开始有点担心了。。！怎样办？？那成绩就好象决定我的人生了。。。一定要很好！而我希望能申请到新加坡啦！担心。。担心。。担心。。！真快咯。。成绩又要出了。。有点舍不得作工那里的朋友咯!唉。。他们对我都很好！而且在那个brand里面我竟然是最小耶。。以前在班上我是第二大耶。。哪知道现在我是最小。。不过也没有关系吗。。哈哈。。拿了成绩过不久又要踏入不同的生活方式了。。。有点怕！又要认识新朋友啦。。又要熟悉不同地方咯。。。哎！没有关系。。18岁了嘛一定要去适应咯。。坚强点！

放下了。。。

自从那次他讲那些话后，我决定要彻底放下。。。嗯，我觉得我已经放下了。。虽然今天有想到一些与他开心的事。。。可是我只是想起罢了没有想到他。。。这么久的事终于可以放下了。。。。感觉轻松多了！今天作工突然间觉得有时我没有朋友的感觉。。。。我就跟一位朋友讲，他和我都有同感。。。我真的不知道为什么我会这么觉得！想到这点有时会羡慕别人有要好的朋友而且身边总是有朋友就对的。。。我觉得我有时没有朋友。。。也许人缘不好吧。。！唉。。真讨厌那种感觉。。。。。。是我的性格关系还是什么呢？？我真的不知道。。。为什么我的心总是要伤心呢？我真的不想我的心再受伤害了。。。真的好累了。。。是我想太多还是什么呢？？？算了。。。我的星座是水瓶座，是独行侠吧。。！也许那是真的。。。我工作的一位朋友说为什么我这样小就那么静？？哈哈。。。我跟她说那些我以前所面对的困难咯。。 不过也许我像我爸爸比较静一点咯。。。可是我玩起来是有点疯的。。。！朋友？？？真的那么困难交吗？？我真的不想为了这个而烦。。。我要每一天都能活得开心。。。。可以吗？？不去想那些事，可以吗？？我真的很累了。。。。请烦恼远离我吧。。。。。。。。。。。。

Haiz...

Haiz..nowaday suddenly i will feel no mood la..why like this?because of what like that?friendship?love?education?family?problem of the surrounding?sleepy?i really cant tell myself what make me like that....cant say it..!!!haiz..i really don know why?is it i don want to know or i afraid to face it??i really don know la..sometime feel "fan" la and will day dreaming la..at working time cannot day dreaming la that why when i day dreaming i sure tell myself wake up and concentrate working lo.."fan"..."fan"..."fan" la...when can don want be so "fan" le...i really don want it..haiz...recently i also not enough sleep la..is it because this make me feel no mood?or "fan" about other things?haha...i don know la...i don bother la..i want learn to let the things go so that i could live happly...hmm...valentine day coming soon la...i saw most of the shop promote valentine's present for couple la..all things very nice!hmm.....how is the feel of valentine day?am i really enjoy it?well..i think not!hmm...maybe i just know the happiness of the couple~hmm....

Thank you you all....

Yesterday was my birthday lo...i can say that yesterday was a wonderful and unforgettable day for me la...yesterday my friends ( PA) and i went to eat steamboat after working lo...first i thought we celebrated CNY la...but then they gave me a surprise la...they even sang birthday song and brought cake for me la...i can say that this was my first time my friend celebrated with me la...even better than my school friend accept somebody la...well...i am very happy what they done for me....i will not forgot you all!!i will not forget this year de birthday la...hmm...that why i saw them always grouping lo..grouping at counter was a wrong way la!well..thx la!hmm....the day before that they sending a nice message to me on the time which was my birthday la...well...it was a nice message which was they all created themselve la..they all one by one send to me lo...very touching la!haha...hmm...they all also very bad la...before went back from steamboat there they play "zhong ji mi ma" la...they pakat already la...first they said who lose must let one friend kiss wor..is a boy la...then i thought was true la...then when play first round got a bit confuse la...then one of them said play again la...then second round they pakat make me lose la...then i am realy lose la...then of course i don want boy kiss my hand la..then sure said don want la..after that they said can choose girl so i choose la...she ask me close eye then i don want and she holded my hand....i thought she want kiss but she never kiss just gave me something...oh..they gave me present la...oh...they use this way make me accept the present la...well...thx their present la...i will appreciate it..happy~~~~~

CNY coming le...

CNY coming soon...hurray..!i like this year de CNY le...because SPM finally over and i can enjoy this time de CNY le!haha....without you i still can so nice!although still cannot let it away but i will try to overcome from it!well....i will keep evrything about you in my heart and dig in it!sometime i really don know how to decribe my feeling....A new year come, a new life begin, a new environment be around, i will start a new life all over again...i will make my life wondeful!

hmm..

Hmm...i very happy work at Padini lo!maybe learn a lot of things!although quite stress for sometime but everything must learn then only can get it la!haha...i know a lot of friends there!haha..!they all very good le!haha..btw i also think about my studies la!haiz..i am worrying!i ask suggestion from my cousin!she recomment me study A level!hmm...is good but i still not sure la!i must think properly first!i don want waste my time lo!i want to be success !hmm...haiz...lazy to write some more la!cause work at Padini quite tired la!